Judgment?

Really tired of the evil eye. My red string bracelet fell off (as its supposed to) a few months ago, and I think I need another one.

Gossip and insults are just people's insecurity about saying what they REALLY feel to your face.

I'm all about sugar-coating if need be, but at least get it out in the open so the accused can defend their self!

Geez!

Hell, I'm as judgmental as the next person, but at least I try to put myself in their place before I start sending them up the river. You never know what someone's motivation is... unless they tell you. I try to be open and sometimes I explain to a fault what motivates me to make decisions about MY life.

I fear retreating into that "other world" where everything is all shiny and happy on the outside, and the inside is a big, fucked up mess.

Been there, done that.

Sorry, had to vent a little.

-r

shorty what yo name iz

I just watched this because I LOVELOVELOVE Beyonce. But I am now thoroughly convinced that B just put Lady Gaga in this video to make herself look better. I mean... Gaga looks like a googley-eyed skinny-ass white girl that can't dance. (AGAIN-- but this time it's worse because she's up next to Beyonce.) If they took Lady Gaga out the video would be way better. I LOVE Beyonce with the Bettie Paige wig! Fucking AMAZING.


Video Phone (Extended Remix) Feat. Lady Gaga

Beyonce | MySpace Music Videos

"In my life, I have prayed but one prayer: Oh lord, make my enemies ridiculous. And god granted it." -- Voltaire

Really?!

I guess it's never too early for drama from a drama queen.

*eyeroll*

I'm gonna tell you about love

I am a 33 year old recovering alcoholic gay man.

I have had 4 significant long term relationships.

Of these 4, I considered 1 a marriage.

My ex husband died last Thursday after a whirlwind 1 week battle with Hodgkins Lymphoma.

Today would have been our 3 year anniversary... had I not been such a drunk last year when we broke up.

I miss Shane. I did when we broke up, and I really do now.

There can never be that hope of reconciliation anymore.

No more "Ta-Da!... See I fixed myself! Don't you wanna work this out??!!"

We met seemingly by coincidence, he walked into my salon suite for a haircut (little did I know that his hair was an obsessive thing for him... I had to cut it every 10 days... LOL).

The instant our eyes met I knew that I wanted to share my life with him, and by the next morning he had sent me an email, a Myspace friend request, and an invitation to have a drink with him.

The only snag was my ex ex boyfriend. Our relationship was on life support, and it was nauseating thinking I couldn't be with Shane, but also ending a 4 year relationship to begin a new one.

So... out with the old - in with the new!

I don't really like to discount my previous relationships, as I've learned a great deal from each of them, but He was the ONE!!!

I wonder if he still is The One.

We moved in together, he bought a house, and we had a dog. We had matching Jeeps, and what appeared the perfect life, working together to make a house a home... like everyone else.

I had a problem though. Shane wasn't perfect, who is? I however LOST IT!

He travelled an immense amount of time for work, and every time he left I went crazy. Not because I wanted to have fun, but because I missed him terribly.

It was all good when he was in town, but he could never be sure when he left if it was gonna be a good or bad trip.

Eventually he couldn't take it anymore. He was done. I was fucked up even more because I pushed him away, even though it all started because I was afraid to lose him.

The love part comes into play with all the great times: Vacations, nights out, nights in, etc. The normal stuff.

But what really counts is that no matter how much strife, or anger, or frustration from either of us towards each other... we managed for a long while to figure out TOGETHER how to stay together. There was so much real love that whatever happened in our separate worlds, when they came together it was magic.

My greatest memories are of us just being together, holding hands on the couch, not having to speak. Comfort. Ease. Joy. LOVE.

Going to bed together at the same time. Brushing our teeth and making fun of each other's "getting ready for bed" rituals. (His always took longer than mine!)

Knowing how he liked his coffee, figuring out what he might want for dinner by the sound of his voice on the phone, KNOWING each other. With or without words.

Seeing recognition in each other's eyes and still saying "I love you", just because you like hearing yourself say them to each other.

The greatest gift that Shane gave me was learning how to be a man of honor, keeping your word, and forgiving someone their shortcomings. I have never had a man in my life, romantic or otherwise, that has shown me on a consistent basis how to BE a man. Until Shane.

Thank you my beloved, BEAUTIFUL, most special and precious Shane.

I love you, Hunkin!

peace-

R

I got to save my baby
Because he makes me cry
I got to make him happy
I got to teach him how to fly
I want to take him higher
Way up like a bird in the sky
I got to calm him down now
I want to save his life

And I know that love will change us forever
And I know that love will keep us together
And I know, I know
There is nothing to fear
And I know that love
Will take us away from here

Sometimes it's such a pleasure
Sometimes I wanna tear it all down
It's easy to be lazy
And hard to go away from the crowd

I know the road looks lonely
But that's just Satan's game
And either way my baby
We'll never be the same

And I know that love will change us forever
And I know that love will keep us together
And I know, I know
There is nothing to fear
And I know that love
Will take us away from here

In the blink of an eye everything could change
Say hello to your life now you're living
This is it from now on
It's a brand new day
It was time to wake up from this dream (from this dream)

I know the road looks lonely
But that's just Satan's game
And either way my baby
You'll never be the same

And I know that love will change us forever
And I know that love will keep us together

And I know that love will change us forever
And I know that love will keep us together
And I know, I know
There is nothing to fear
And I know that love
Will take us away from here

Gag Me With A Spoon

I am very irritated about this Lady Gaga situation.

When she first hit the scene, I thought she brilliant, innovative, and was eager to have a new pop-tart to listen to/adore. I did even contemplate that she could possibly be the new Madonna, because she was so "fashion forward" and "artistic" and "creative".

My thoughts about this have changed drastically. Though I almost don't know where to begin.

Let's start with the most shallow & minor aspect-- she's ugly. She's not fat, and that's about all she has going for her. Because she's not fat, she can pile on 10 lbs of make-up and glue on some hair and fit into "fashion" and be called fabulous, but there is nothing fabulous about her unfortunate face.

Okay, that's really the smallest of my gripes and merely catty. The biggest thing for me going anti-Gaga was watching Kylie Minogue videos and realizing that Gaga was TOTALLY ripping her off. The wigs, the space costumes, omg. It was BLATANT. And OFFENSIVE! Kylie deserves so much respect for so many reasons-- (fighting breast cancer and WINNING, longevity in her career though most of her North American popularity has been amongst the gay community, AMAZING costumes and shows, omg) and then for this 23 yr old hag to come along and rip her off & shove herself down our throats while calling herself a "performance artist" and "original" makes me sick. Kylie has worked YEARS to get where she is and this girl is stealing her shit and running with it.

Her VMA performance-- ok, ALL of her performances -- are SO amateur! I know Madonna started off rolling around on the floor in a wedding dress, but Madonna had FIRE behind her. Madonna made marriage look sexy! Gaga just looks WEIRD. And I am fully open to weird, but it's not weird in a good way! I'm shocked that she doesn't completely alienate her audiences when she is covered in blood and hangs herself onstage. It's "performance art" but what is her art? Her vocals go to shit the minute she starts "performing". She is NOT a good dancer at all. She looks very unpolished and rough, like she doesn't practice enough FOR the performance. And she looks like she just throws on a wig and jumps out onstage. Just MESS.

Her speech for the Gay Rights Rally-- while her heart may have been in the right place, just sounded ridiculous to me. Screaming at the President? Really? Just looks crazy and I don't how the President is going to do anything other than laugh or be horrified, and I don't know how that works IN FAVOR of gay rights. I do agree that he SHOULD listen and maybe that was "attention getting" but honestly it just looked embarrassing. And I didn't notice many people acknowledging her plea for acceptance with her comment, "And I love Judy Garland." Just STOP already! We know you're a hag!

I will give her credit that some of her songs are very catchy and I like them, still, even after I stopped liking HER. I will also give her credit for writing her own songs and obviously having DRIVE and ambition to get where she is, but to me, that is where her similarities with Madonna STOP. Everyone thought Britney was going to take over Madonna's reign, (obviously she did not) but does Madonna have to "pass the torch" to every new pop-tart that comes along? There isn't going to BE another Madonna, because Madonna isn't GOING anywhere. Gaga needs to either originalize her game or get the fuck out. She said that her next songs are going to be gothy, it seems more likely for her to become the female version of Marilyn Manson than anything else; shocking for the sake of being shocking.

Yawn.